Hello! This
is my first post and I'd like to introduce myself a little bit. My name is Noe,
I am a Pisces and above all a little mermaid lost in a sea of fish...Why?
Because I am magic! I'm talking about my spirit, my soul, my heart and my
inside. I am a very special and different girl.
I'm about
to hit the thirties. People used to tell me I would become less passionate and softy
with time...How wrong they were! I am extremely lively, a happy-go-lucky sort of girl. My positive energy is
contagious. I am a smiler, a dreamer, a hopeless romantic and a warrior at
heart. Yes, I act like a real baby sometimes -many times. I have a strong
character, I don't know how to control myself and I just let myself go when
it comes to feelings. I can be a real pain if I want something. I trust too
much and open my heart easily when I feel some magic. I am crazy as fuck in a
good sense. I act without thinking, others keep thinking without acting.
Changes scare me a lot. My determination helps me get what I really want but it
also keeps me trying until I'm broken. I can't give up on anything or anybody I
feel special about. Luckily, my heart and mind are so connected they usually
agree. I am wild, extremely wild. I'm up for anything, I'd take any risk,
whatever it is when I know it is worth it. I love spontaneity, travelling &
nature. I am the most loyal friend you can make. I never lie, it would be like
killing myself. I insist too much....I can sense things that others can't - I
call it super power. I am always willing to do anything for love. When I am
down....I am tremendously depressed. I need high doses of affection and
attention. I read eyes to know what people have in their minds. I may not
approve what you do but I will never ever judge you.
I could
keep going but I am sure you will get a picture of me if you keep reading my
posts. I am dealing with a very delicate and painful situation which was sweet
as honey and magical like my dreams...My posts will be about my sweets memories
from the past, my present which I take as it comes, my future which is fed by
my imagination...my life.
This is a
text I wrote some days ago and it is based on my sweet memories, true story for
sure. I can't go a day without thinking of those moments...my whole body knows how
special we could be together and despite I try...I don't want to move on and
surrender. You know, when the world says 'Give up. What has he done for you? He
doesn't care anymore, don't you see it?", hope whispers "Just wait,
he will realize how much he misses you. He will put your magic connection
before anything else. He is not dorky, he is a warrior at heart just like you.
Give him some time even if it hurts and always be there for him. You both are
special".
"Are
you spontaneous?" he asked her, not knowing how pure her heart was, how wild
her love could get to be, how courageous she was, how blindly she believed in
magic. "Sure!" she replied. For him it was going to the beach, an
unplanned 4 hours drive. No bookings. No place to stay in. If she was asked
about spontaneity...she would surely say: "Let's meet halfway, just take
the next flight to Paris & I will show you how healthy madness can get to
be. Let's eat crêpes - a cheat meal for sure! - & let ourselves go for
once. I won't ever hurt you. We can live every moment to the fullest. I can
make you laugh every day. You will know what it feels like to be loved beyond
words".
She would imagine and dream about so many beautiful
situations...she could almost feel his touch, figure out what he smelled like
& think of his body pressed against hers. She would put spontaneity into
practise in a heartbeat if he asked her to. Just for once in a lifetime. Her
inner sparkle helped her to believe against all odds in their magical
connection. She got weaker with hard times and his mixed signals but kept
refusing to give up on him. She would break down every day but she had an angel
in heaven watching over her she used to call grandpa who lifted her up. She
would just resign to be his friend, not just another one but that one you talk
to & share your thoughts with. She did not really want to lose him. Magic
is so hard to find and so was it going to be for her to surrender. Sometimes
she felt he had lost all the interest but her day to day life kept sending
signals she just could not ignore. All she needed was to know what was in his
mind and what he felt about her...to eventually find peace.
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