You need more water or you'll dry up, little mermaid...

Hello guys...I am kind of broken today. Sometimes I think I can keep fighting, others, instead, I think I am stupid for doing so. He knows perfectly how I feel about everything and...he says things that hurt so much...Little details that matter quite a lot. I believe so strongly in our connection that maybe reality is a bit blurred for me now. Maybe I am not the only one...maybe he is interested in someone else...maybe it is just me the one who feels the magic. It drives me so mad when someone tries to hit on me via Instagram...I tell them what is going on in my life and I get so furious when they try to take advantage of my current weakness...They criticize him, tell me what a huge mistake I could make if I trusted him - do they even know him? They talk to me as friends but then, I am not silly at all, they kind of sound me out...I don't know...They say they see how amazing and beautiful I am, how special & different I am...buttering me up! But, hey! They insist they are not like him. Of course they are NOT and they will never be...How deluded they are! When I say it is EXTREMELY HARD to get my interest, maybe I should say it is ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE to lure my magic.

Maybe he just wants a casual online relationship...someone who does not interfere with his goals too much and save him any drama as he would say. I will just wait smiling...don't know how much longer I will be able to do so though. And what it worse...last night I had such beautiful dreams...no words to describe them.

My little story: She was sex, she was passion, she was lust but she was caged. He opened the door of her cage and turned her into the tiny beast she had inside. She was extremely cute & childish but she was fire and wild as hell. He could awaken both sides of her. He loved to play with his voice. She just loved his voice...He said he wanted to press his body against hers...but she knew that deep inside he wanted to caress her soul, kiss her heart and look at her in her sleep. Her dreams were never wrong and she could feel he still had some love to offer. It was a pity he had lost all his courage...How brave you were, how scared you are now!